Confessions of a Pastor

This is an interesting post from Gary Lamb, pastor of Ridge Stone Church. What do you think?

I haven't wanted to post this...I have avoided it all day...I'm not proud of it but we all make it mistakes...I have tried hard to not do this...I gave into peer pressure that is all I can say...I am very ashamed...I could start by giving you excuses:

There are no streetlights in my neighborhood

I was lazy and didn't feel like walking

I thought what I was doing was better

But they would be just excuses and would not justify what I did.

I have always prided myself on the fact that I don't do a lot of churchy stuff and yet I did this. I actually feel dirty from this.

So what is it that I did? I am so ashamed I can barely type it.....
I WENT TO A CHURCH FALL FESTIVAL!

There I said it. I know you probably think less of me but what can I say? I fell off the wagon. I gave in. I'm a loser.

I will say this: It was awful.

I knew it was wrong. I was so ashamed I actually went to the next town over from me where no one would see me. That is sad. :)

Like most things I go to that involve church, I will say this: The church again proved why they aren't reaching people. This thing was awful. I was embararssed to be a christian and to think they thought they were reaching people without a church home.

If you would have asked this church they would have told you this was their big thing for the community. No, it was their big thing for Christians.

Why can't the church get "it."

Here were some things I noticed that were just flat out sad.

1.) Candy - To kids this is the most important part of Halloween. It is for me as well. When you showed up you registered and they gave you a little sandwich bag with candy in it. That was it. We rushed home where Ashlyn could go door to door and she got more candy on our street then she did there. That is very important for a 4 year old. After it was done she told me how fun it was and next year let's skip the festival. I want my kids growing up digging church not thinking it is lame.

2.) Christianize - Man the christianize language was in full affect. Why do people get saved and then they decide to talk weird? If I met another Bro. so and so I was going scream. If someone called it Harvest day instead of Halloween one more time I was going to punch them. Unchurched people think we are weird because we are.

3.) Excellence - It was sad. This is a large church but I could have honestly done a better job. The inflatables were sad, the games were lame, and the candy...well I already shared that. This church truly had the opportunity to show the community a great time and that church could rock but instead they showed them that the church is always lags behind the world in terms of excellence.

4.) Costumes - No scary ones. I understand they are a church BUT if you are reaching unchurched (that was their goal) then let them come and accept them and maybe let them see you aren't LAME! There was a dude carrying a snake around and security was escorting them away. Now, I don't want a snake around either but the snake seemed under control.

5.) Pastor - He was very sissyish. More and more pastors are very sissy men. They are so prim and proper and can't relate to people. I think people now expect their pastor to be that way and that is one of the reasons men don't attend church. I have A LOT of thoughts on this but I will post that on another day. I truly felt if I punched him he would break. I listened to him talk and again who talks like that? His wife had big hair too. Not cool. :)
I could go on and on but you would think I was being a jerk. I am not trying to be but I can't believe I relapsed like this.

My point is simply I am ashamed that I went to this thing instead of hanging out in my neighborhood and doing what I do best which is chilling with those who don't go to church.
I am worried about the church. Overall she just doesn't get it.